We last left off when I called in to the doctor's office for my cycle instructions and was given the exact same instructions as the last two times. Since it was a Saturday, I knew I would have to wait until Monday to call my real doctor's office (not just the weekend covering crew). I called on Monday and asked for my usual nurse practitioner, only to be told that she is no longer working there. With no notice or whatever, at least to me. Totally weird. Anyway, I left a message with the new NP and she probably thought I was a crazy person, because my voicemails don't usually make sense ANYWAY and this one was no different:

"Hi, this is Jude _____, date of birth ______. I'm a patient of Dr. ______'s and he and I spoke on the phone last cycle about my dismal response and low numbers, and he promised me that we would be more aggressive this time since it's my last chance and I called to start my new cycle and the instructions were exactly the same and I thought maybe it would be different because he said he would change the protocol and I'm moving at the end of this cycle and don't know when I can try again so I was really hoping that he really meant it and this probably doesn't make any sense, so let me start over. *breath* Dr. _____ told me he would be more aggressive this cycle because it's my last cycle. My weekend nurse gave me the same instructions as the last two times. I was hoping you could check with Dr. _____ to see if it should be different. Thanks." (And yes, I am often just one big run-on sentence.)

Thankfully she did not think I was totally insane, and she left me a voicemail back that said that my doctor does not come in on Mondays but she left him an e-mail and would check back with him tomorrow (today) and call me. When she hadn't called by 12:30, I got nervous and left her another message asking if she'd heard from him.

Finally at about 4pm I got voicemail from her telling me to take 150iu of Follistim tonight through Friday, instead of the 75iu I was ordered. WOAH, that's twice as much! I've never taken 150 before, the most was 125iu for 2 or 3 days on my first cycle when things weren't moving along quickly enough.

I guess you get what you ask for... but I was seriously expecting him to say 100 or something. I hope he's not going to fill me with so many eggs that they end up cancelling my cycle altogether because of the risk of multiples. Then I would REALLY flip my lid!

This is really just one big head trip.